Currently I am 19 weeks pregnant, almost half way. So far, the journey has been full of changes and surprises, not all bad.
Usually I am a very active person. My favourite forms of exercise are Yoga (Hatha, Vinyasa & Kundalini), hiking, walking, snow shoeing & snowboarding. The mentioned are the exercises I gravitate towards and enjoy doing. They have been tried and tested and for me are easy to do & go to regularly. Until pregnancy.
The biggest difference for me since getting pregnant is my lack of drive to want to do a more physical Yoga class. The walking, hiking and snowshoeing no problem but going to a tough Vinyasa or sweaty Kundalini does not appeal to me right now. Before, these were my favourite classes. (By the way snowboarding has been postponed until next year. I fall a lot and I’m too scared of doing something damaging to my body or the baby)
Yoga was a huge part of my exercise routine, on average I would practice 4 times in the studio and self-practice once or twice at home. I also teach, however that has been postponed since December as my student is away on vacation until the end of January.
Currently I am attending 2 classes a week, a prenatal class and a Yin or soft Hatha class. Both classes are very relaxing and I feel really safe. That’s the thing its not that my body is not able for my usual yoga class it’s my mind freaking out that I may be doing something that might hurt the baby. I have gone to my usual classes and felt anxious and uncertain of how I am feeling. So weird. I know that is ridiculous but I cannot help the way I feel……it’s so strange. There are some poses that do not feel good right now, like extending my legs into the air and staying in downdog too long, the blood pressure in my head gets too much.
Yoga for me was as much about the physical as it was about the mental. However, these days its definitely more about the mental. I love the reassurance from Theresa the prenatal teacher on how you can feel whatever you feel and its ok. She mentions that we as pregnant ladies should take moments each day of self-compassion, speak nice to ourselves and give ourselves a break. This advice can apply to all of us, not only pregnant ladies.
We all might be going through a big change it doesn’t have to be pregnancy, maybe the go to workout routine doesn’t work anymore, maybe focusing on the softer, lighter more reflective activity maybe what our bodies need. Maybe it’s my body telling me its ok to take it easy for the next while even though my brain is saying, you are getting lazy, you need to be working out more, don’t be one of those pregnant ladies who blames the lack of doing on their physical state!
This is where I can go down a rabbit hole and where I need to listen to my teacher’s advice of having more compassion for myself. The fact that I still want to practice yoga is great, the fact that I go walking everyday (yes at a slower pace) is healthy for the baby and great for me too.
This is where I have to let go of my judgements and start supporting my decisions to slow it down. Maybe this is what I need right now, embrace it and enjoy my moments of fresh air & reflection before the arrival of a baby.
My promise to myself moving forward is to show myself more compassion, meditate, reflect, get as much fresh air as possible on my walks, breath, practice my 2 yoga classes and be ok with that. Be thankful I can do all of that and be grateful for a healthy body which is carrying such precious cargo.
Would love to hear if you went through similar experiences or you have completely different experiences during your pregnancy.
Thanks for reading.