I have often wondered about this soul. What is it? Does it exist? Do I have one? Do you have one? Do you believe in the soul?
I think the soul is what it all boils down to. I believe the soul is the true self.
In his book, The Power of Now, Eckhart Tolle talks a lot about the busy mind, all the chatter that is constantly playing out in your head. The internal dialogue, the judgment, the thoughts, the wanting, the fear – the list goes on. Tolle describes this chatter as a sickness and talks about coming into the present moment and quieting the thoughts.
The present moment with a quiet mind, in my opinion, is when you find your true self. Your soul.
I am not talking about a static mind, but one which is at peace with itself in a way that a person knows who they truly are.
It’s like an artist chipping away at a block to reveal the true piece of art in inside. The artist is you. The masterpiece is your soul and your tools are right there at your disposal. Honesty, humility, breath, meditation, exercise, stillness, nature, sight, sound, color, touch, feeling, sharing, again – I could go on. The tools are anything that allows your mind to become still. Like training a muscle, the more time spent with the mind at ease, the more we chip away at the fluff that surrounds ourselves and our personality.
I have noticed that I behave differently depending on who I am with and on the situation I am in. Sometimes I wonder which one is the real me, or at least which one is the best representation of the type of person I am. The more I practice meditation and yoga and get into the mountains away from distractions of everyday life, the more I can see myself for who I am, and who I want to be. The better I can see my soul.
Hindsight is a great thing. It amazes me how suddenly it creeps up on a person bringing with it revelations about the past. Things I did, people I treated badly. Years after, the wrong I did came to me all of a sudden. Maybe, back then I carried too much. Maybe I carried so much crap in my mind that I couldn’t see clearly. Over the years did I peel away some of the layers so I could see more of what is around me but also what is inside of me? Did I get closer to the real me? My soul?
Everybody has a true self. But not everybody’s true self is revealed, even to themselves. I have not found my soul and may never find it, but I hope that each day I can get a little closer to my true nature and that whatever I do find, I hope it can be positive and make up for the foolish things I have done in the past.
I would like to go into this topic on a deeper level sometime in the future but for now I wish you happy soul searching. Remember there are no lost souls. It is right there inside you. It is just a question of how deep it is buried.